Hello! yeah.. I was meant to do this as much as I could. You know the blogging thing; the thing that was supposed to help me get my thought together? Yeah. it was working for a while and I felt very content I felt like I was finally getting something done from the 1000 things that I’m planning on doing. Thinking “if I put it on paper it will look more real” amongst a bunch of things that I’m planning on doing without discussing it with anyone until they’re done but I’m yet to begin *sigh* without further ado the “list of wants to dos”
1. AIR FORCES
I wanted to join a branch of the military for a long time now, without saying my whole life. I think that’s the type of life for me and I still till this day want to do it. I just need to lose SOME WEIGHT (40lb to be exact). I’ve been attempting to lose this weight since I gave birth to my daughter 5 months ago (shout to you baby! You’re the real). But it’s been futile no matter how much I try. Therefore I’m still waiting to enlist.
2. LOSE WEIGHT
As I mentioned in my first point I’m trying to lose 40lbs to join the Air Force but not solely that, more than just that I also plane and simple want to lose weight. I want to look good. You see, I believe I have one SEXY man by my side. My husband’s a stunning tall chocolate man, with a gorgeous smile and amazing face, he’s so beautiful *drools* he’s the love of my life I just want him to look at me the way I look at him, I’m not saying he doesn’t But just in case. Well, the point is I wanna match with him, I want to look good next to him, for him (but mostly me). I want to wear nice clothes and I want to feel good in my own skin above a bunch of other things; I just want to. But I don’t want to ask for help because then, I’d be judged every time I quit. I know, it’s not a good reason.
I want to start and finish my career! I was supposed to start school at “HUNTER BUSINESS SCHOOL” this April 6th or 17th one or the other. Due to “THE CORONA!” everything was postponed and I will now start maybe May 4th MAYBE and that’s a huge maybe, (we can say IT “MAY” HAPPEN HAHAHAHAH). It’s a 7 month class from mon-fri for Computer Tech blah blah. Don’t get me wrong, it’s pretty cool and I’m very interested. It’s just I wanna get to the point. I want to also enlist on this 3 month realestate licensing deal and also join a 3 month coding camp that’s a lil over a year to complete everything, and still I haven’t even gotten started GREAT! Maybe I should have added all those in the list but they all fall in the category of learning.
4. WIN AT MOTHERHOOD
I want to be the very best mom, the best there ever was. My babies are AMAZING they’re smart they deserve a full time mom who’s only interest it’s keeping their environment clean and their bellies full and just love em 24/7, 7 days a week, 31 days a month, 52 weeks a year, all 12 months of the year and 365 days of the year. (Except Tuesdays and Bank Holiday JK JK ). I want to bake, take children to soccer have the house spotless and cook for my family. BUT I also want to kick ass at work and school and I sadly am not that skilled AT ALL.
I’m trying very hard to get started and rock as a mommy. I figured it gonna take a while. I’ve given myself until I’m 26 to accomplished most of my goals while being a great mom (which is my priority) after that I’ll just be content with being a great mommy but for now.. I need to get started and try and kick butt!